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This is such a vast topic.

I am a totally different friend now than when I was growing up.

Growing up, I wanted to be around my friends as much as possible. I was bummed when I had to stay home from some party because I would miss out on something.

I look back and think why? I actually missed out on some great quality time with my family instead.

I didn’t get to go out all the time. There were rules. But I did tend to make my time out count. We won’t go into that. LOL.

I admit I was messed up in the head and wasn’t always the greatest friend to others. Various teenage reasons for that. I do regret that a lot. I think if I could redo my teenage years, I would. I would make better decisions for sure. I can say, I have some wild memories that was a heck of a lot of fun.

Now, for the future me. I am so opposite now. I could careless about going out with a friend. Not that I don’t like them or want to spend time with them, I just don’t want to. No reasons really. Well, maybe a few but the biggest is, I just don’t want the drama that could come with it. Perhaps, when the last child is graduated I will change my mind and want a close friend again. I don’t know.

I am pretty content with my kids and hubby being the big part of my life.

Though, I would like one to talk to when something is bothering me. I think.

See, I can’t even decide if I want to interact with humans, other than my immediate family. LOL

I guess that is what an introvert is, huh? 🙂

I confuse myself let alone if I had a close friend. LOL

I talk to my old friends, sometimes, and once in a great while we get together but nothing weekly, monthly or even yearly. Oops.

Has social media ruined it for me? Has a smart phone ruined it for me?

Or perhaps, I was meant to be this way but fate changed that path when I was younger. I think about fate a lot. I believe fate plays a tremendous role in how our lives go. It is all about the right choices that fate throws at you. If those choices turn bad, will we learn from them? Some have taken me a time or two to learn.  Just like when I ignore that dang gut feeling.

Always go with your gut. I must keep telling myself that. 🙂

I must say I did choose hanging with friends way more before smart phones and social media came along.

The amazing thing is, I’m not unhappy. Go figure.

I do find myself when interacting with another human other than my hubby and kids, I don’t know what to talk about.

I am tongue-tied. So not me.

I have lost the ability to communicate. But give me an emoji or GIF and I will communicate all day long to you! LOL