I dont know what to think. Publisher said no refunds already started. ugh. my life this year.i should have read better.

my arm doesnt want to work. it hurts most of the time. i cant help think of what was. then i cry. im losing hope. i dont think i will get better. i moved my stuff out my original creative cave. i dont want to be where it happened. in fact art is not for me. once in awhile but not like it was. i hope to work if my arm ever works again. plus really need to work on downsizing. start throwing away.

ive lost everything i enjoy. writing, journals,drawing,yardwork,sports,eating cause i lost my teeth. but i guess in a way mostly bad eating.

ive even lost interest in reading.been on same book 100 page. should have been done in a few hours.

just same day, watch tv. so damn bored. im use to being on the go. cant even drive.