I’m doing some Halloween decorating. for years i wanted to wood pieces. im bored so im doing them. lol i cant write too much left hand but small words are it.
ill think of more things to do. i need to stay busy. tv is getting kind of boring. i never thought i would say that. completely left handed, stroke took my dominate right hand. i can use it for holding down stuff but thats about it.
i practiced lifting weights with my right Friday. i trying. may take me forever but not giving up. only 1 lb. and i have to help move it right now until the muscle builds.
i watch hgtv regularly, noticed they like to put books on shelves backwards. OMG i want to see what the book is. i want to know what people have to read. im nosy like that. just looks weird.
im still one hand typing, sorry things are not capitalized.
most shows like using all white. i like color! some white is cool.
i love to decorate for all holidays. i dont know yet if i will do much this year. decorations are downstairs and one hand makes it challenging, but will take time. makes me cry to lose another thing i enjoy. losing a hand one one doesnt realize what they lose.
i cry everyday when a memory comes up. i try to not take the crazy med even though its low dose,0.5 mg. sometimes small cry fits other times big. it does clear my nose. lol i go through a lot of kleenex! my family asks what is wrong and i cant say because ill cry more.
but i took crazy pill, eating a cupcake, and drinking a pop. but i am drinking a veggie fruit drink too. i know not to eat sugar but damn i got to enjoy life!
I dont know what to think. Publisher said no refunds already started. ugh. my life this year.i should have read better.
my arm doesnt want to work. it hurts most of the time. i cant help think of what was. then i cry. im losing hope. i dont think i will get better. i moved my stuff out my original creative cave. i dont want to be where it happened. in fact art is not for me. once in awhile but not like it was. i hope to work if my arm ever works again. plus really need to work on downsizing. start throwing away.
ive lost everything i enjoy. writing, journals,drawing,yardwork,sports,eating cause i lost my teeth. but i guess in a way mostly bad eating.
ive even lost interest in reading.been on same book 100 page. should have been done in a few hours.
just same day, watch tv. so damn bored. im use to being on the go. cant even drive.
i thought i was going to publish a book but it seemed fishy. so i asked to cancel it and deleted every thing. it didnt give you contacts and then they had people talk to you that was with another publishing company which seemed odd. then a third company was going to do the one book publish. nothing was being done with ebook sites. and it was going to charge more. forget that. sadly i lost 300 dollars. lesson learned.but now they will probably be attached to my book forever. maybe someday i wiil write a new one. why would you run a company with 3 publishers that dont advertise together or work together, fastpencil,opyrus, and ingram spark.
Not much going on. I dont go to therapy anymore. Being sick from dentist stuff wiped me out for weight i lost a lot. i ended up falling several times. no hospitall trips but i was tired.eating better now. my dentures fit but i slobber to much to use them. the bill was way to much to keep going to therapy. we do exercises here at home. gaining but not a lot.one good thing blood pressure way down. blood pressure pill only one 2.5 from about 5 pills. 133 i weighed in high school. i wish my hand would work, getting bored. i have cleaned a bit and cooked with jessup’s help.
today i had to turn to dentist.my gums swelled to balloons. they didnt hurt. i guess they were allergic to the implant posts. that sucks. he had to cut the the gums and take out the posts. i have slept against crazy. i wont dont the again.sure glad i dont have a mouth full. he says he can try againor reimburse. i say hell no.