Journal…Aug 1 – 7

August 1
Question: Do you need a cold shower?
Year 2012
Nope. 🙂
Year 2013
Nope, weather has been ok, not too hot.
shower (Photo from Bing.com)

August 2
Question: Describe the room you’re in right now.
Year 2012
My bedroom. Oberlin. Blue. Calm. Warm. Cozy. Large.
Year 2013
Our cozy little bedroom/office. Tan walls and carpet. Small area with lots of things around it. One bulletin board and one poster. Need some artwork! 🙂

August 3
Question: What do you lie about?
Year 2012
My feelings at times. Just don’t want to talk about them out loud. Never have.
Year 2013
Feelings. Like what I am thinking. Don’t always want to spill the beans to anyone.

August 4
Question: When was the last time you were on an airplane?
Year 2012
I think 2004. Chicago trip with the college art club. It was fun.
Year 2013
It was 2004. Suppose to this coming weekend but it might be changed.
thCAYIR5I7 (Photo from Bing.com)

August 5
Question: Today you destroyed…..
Year 2012
A cup. Threw it away. Exciting…:)
Year 2013
I destroyed the laundry! Almost all done. A few towels left! Yes!

August 6
Question: Who are you?
Year 2012
A woman, middle age, happy, mom, and wife.
Year 2013
I am who I am and if people don’t like it than I’m not going to stress about it. I like me. 🙂

August 7
Question: What was your last great meal?
Year 2012
Eating at Cracker Barrel for the first time! Yummy.
Year 2013
Red Lobster on Mother’s Day! Love seafood! It was with the hubby, thanks to the daughter watching the two younger boys.

They grow fast.

My Sweet Little Girl

They grow too fast.

It seems like such a long time ago that my daughter was a small toddler. She loved to watch all Disney movies, color, and learn whatever she could. I think I saw Mary Poppins more times than I cared to but I am glad it is those movies that interested her instead of something violent. I remember the many colored pictures and usually in the lines. I was always afraid to throw any away because I thought it was being mean to her. I thought I was saying you are not good enough. Yes, I do have them in a tote buried with hundreds of school papers. I will someday have them all in a scrapbook, someday.

She was my first born and so I learned many things from her. I found out if you allow her to sleep all the time with you, it’s a bit difficult to teach her to sleep in her own bed. She definitely was my night owl. She could almost out last me when it came to going to bed. Luckily, when she began kindergarten, she discovered bed time was a good thing. I assume the day wore her out enough that she began to like sleep which was a blessing for me.

When her baby brother was born, she was determined that he was not coming home. She didn’t want no sibling. When I did bring him home and she got to hold him. She looked up at me and said, “I guess we can keep him.” From that moment on, she became mother hen to him. She was a good little helper. As the years have gone by they tell me more stories of how little missy wasn’t always so nice to little brother. I am glad they can laugh about it and it makes me happy to see they love each other.

I recall a time when she had a friend over to play and they were giggling in her room on the top bunk of the bunk beds she shared with her brother. When I walked into the room they quickly covered something on the bed. I walked over and pulled the cover up and oh my goodness. They had taken several different soaps, lotions, and liquids and mixed them altogether on the bed. My first reaction was thank goodness they did not chemically react. It was a mess to clean up. She got a chewing for that one. No she did not become a scientist.

Oh, the years of girl drama. I could go on and on about those but I won’t. It definitely was an interesting time. As most teenagers go through periods of insecurity so did my beautiful daughter. I now know there were times she felt she couldn’t come to me for help and I so apologize for giving her that feeling. It was never my intention to be like that. I thank whoever and however she made it through those times. I remember being like that. I made it through with determination and writing in my journals. I see the same determination in her so I am glad she is a strong person even if she thinks she isn’t.

As she blossomed into a young lady with her whole life in front of her, she asked to join the Army. I think my mouth dropped two stories. It was very difficult to see her leave for boot camp two days after she graduated high school. I couldn’t have been more proud that she knew what she wanted to do. She was born to be a leader. It was in her from the start. She just didn’t always know or get the chance to prove it to herself or to others. She has been serving the United States Army Reserves ever since.

Life didn’t completely go as planned. She made mistakes and family tensions have been there. The one thing I had hoped she would never have to experience, she did. She lost her baby boy to a miscarriage. I can write words but when it comes to saying them, I simply suck at it. I didn’t say what I felt and it gave her more insecurity from me. It created a whole big mess for the good part of a year while she was deployed serving her country. When she came back I let go of all bad feelings and our relationship has blossomed. It’s like having my little girl back again only she has become the most beautiful, determined, and strong young woman any mother would love to have.

She has achieved her college degree, been promoted in the Army Reserves, and balances two jobs. I couldn’t be more proud. She is a survivor. She has proven that no matter what obstacles get in the way she will conquer them. It is the best feeling in the world to know your child can take care of themselves. I look forward to all the ups and downs we will travel together as a family.

Loved you then, love you now, love you forever, Mom.13 - 1

Pink with some bumps

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The final project on the wall. I love it. It adds some color where there is no color. My solution to not being able to paint the wall. 😉

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My finished “Love Tree”. I put the sticker hearts for the leaves. I will someday make me an actual Valentine tree. A small one. I don’t want to go all crazy like Christmas or anything. I think my hubby would say NO. 🙂 What is a tree without some rocks and flowers beneath it.

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I have to say it was brutal doing this one. The hot glue gun attacked my left thumb. I have a nice little blister but at least the pain has subsided. I like this one because it has the three hearts for my sons, the top rock heart is my hubby, my heart is over his with the sticker hearts, and then my daughters heart is the bottom rock heart with the pretty pink beads in the middle.

I love playing with paints and found objects. I love that it consumes my time so I don’t have to do housework, at least for the moment. 🙂

The Paint PINK

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The two together on the wall.

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My “Love Tree”. I have always enjoyed painting trees. I have no idea why. I wonder if I was a tree in my previous life or something.

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My hearts. I love to do art for each of the holidays. This is the first I have done for this holiday. I love Valentines Day. I love the kindness and the pretty colors. My hubby said when he saw that I had splashed some color on the canvas finally, oh you put pink on it. I just grinned. He doesn’t like pink too well. 🙂